I love when I wake up

"The holy grail is still full. No waterfalls!!

2009-10-10T23:02:08Z

I think I am dangerously close to falling in love with Marlboro. And dancing on the edge of realizing how much of an awful person Ross truly can be. That, my friends, is the question holding down my hopes of applying.

You know I was thinking- it wasn't okay for you to do that to my car.

2008-12-02T00:51:18Z

this motherfucker is only for my friends to read. look@ how fucking tiny her legs are.
I think this time last year, I was @a low. And now, I don't know where I am. I'm so, so indifferent about college, but I guess the hard part of applying is done. I'm sure I'll get all anxious and scared again once acceptances roll around- that's when I really have to make the decision.
I am so excited for Christmas. I honestly do not want a thing. Just a really nice evening with Brooke and some snow. But I cannot wait to go to my second home and give everyone their gifts. I just like seeing peoples' reactions to knowing that I care.
I'm trying so much to get better at everything, but I don't know how that's going yet.
I bought a new journal today and it's huge. It'll take a year for me to finish, if I'm lucky.
I really, really want to rearrange and redo my room again.. already.

generalize my disease, I need a taste of what it's like.

2008-09-10T01:40:18Z

My horoscope was talking about trash talkers and problems that won't go away. Sometimes I love how they're so dead on. My life has been one huge hill after the next, and I'm pretty sure it's never going to stop. But I am so beyond okay with that. From this past weekend, I've made so many bonds stronger and got in touch with old pasts. I'm not saying it was worth it, but it showed me what and who really matter. Not to mention, good ole' MarbReds got my heart back.
In art, I had a painting of the cutest seven year old boy I've ever seen trying not to smile, with face paint like a cat. I went to the freshman art room and broke the canvas into a million pieces. It's sitting out in the rain in Taunton somewhere. Sometimes a little rain and a day off is all you need.
I have always been completely horrible at forever goodbyes, and you know what? I think that was my problem the whole time. The funniest part was, my biggest mistake was just a two minute down the street beach. Never had I ever kissed someone while crying.
listen to Hold On by Tim Armstrong.

hannamarie_says @ 2008-09-03T11:30:00

2008-09-04T03:30:55Z

(6:50) wake up!
(7:20) leave4school.
(7:48) school starts.
(2:30) ccxc hXc starts.
(4:30) xc ends.
(4:30) time for work.
(8:30) home!
homework, shower, and prepping for tomorrow ensue.
I keep having dreams about eating meat, and waking up and not knowing if they're real or not. I don't know what this means. ("To dream that you are eating meat, signifies that you are getting to the heart of the matter."). I still don't know what this means.
I hungout with Tom Jones for the first time in three years on Monday. I liked getting lost at Profile Rock, getting spun on merry-go-rounds by a drunk black man, and making a mess @Cumby's. I think I'll especially like drinking with him this weekend.
I have school tomorrow and my first XC meet. I like being a senior, I like having electives, I love my XC team and school friends. But I hate having no time and a lack of energy. Pretty soon I'll run out.
I want Elemeno and my assuredness back.

hannamarie_says @ 2005-10-25T21:31:00

2005-10-26T01:33:21Z

okay. halloween in six days.
why am i not looking forward to it?

homecoming in two weeks.
another thing i'm not looking forward to.

he ruins everything. i think?

hannamarie_says @ 2005-10-18T22:30:00

2005-10-19T02:38:40Z

Hey I'm actually keeping this thing updated. Weird.
So today we had no school. The dam was leaky, but I didn't find out 'till 6 this morning. So I went back to sleep 'till around 10ish. Then I got up and got dressed and such and played with my little cousin. I did a little homework, went online, and other such things. At 1:30ish, Alley and Jess came. We went to Pepperoni's and got some late lunch. And then at 3:30 I got my hair cut. David met us at the Designer Styles. Which is really cool and new. Then we went over to Honey Dew Donuts. We hung out there for a tad. Then David went home and Al, Jess, and I walked back to my house. We hung there for five minutes, then went over to see if Jeff was home.
He wasn't. But Cory was. So we hung out with him, Travis, and Arial for 20 minutes or so. Cory rode his quad. Oh wow. Then we skipped back to my house. Alley and Jess had to go, so I went inside. Momsy said Bri and I could each have someone over. But Bri went to Emma's, and Alley couldn't sleep over. So it's a long night of me lying on my bed and talking to Jack tonight!
Tomorrow I plan to make more plans.

hannamarie_says @ 2005-09-14T16:02:00

2005-09-14T23:03:19Z

Everything's kinda toppling down now.
It's like when your climbing a mountain.
And you made it to the top.
And then you fell down.

hannamarie_says @ 2005-09-04T09:34:00

2005-09-04T13:37:53Z

Greenday was the best thing I will ever go to.
dkhjalfkjaj.
Especially since Billie Joe had his hand down his pants.
And was moaning too; of course.
Yeeeppp.

hannamarie_says @ 2005-08-28T23:19:00

2005-08-29T03:20:10Z

Ahh!
Two days!
But Green Day in six.

hannamarie_says @ 2005-08-23T17:24:00

2005-08-23T21:24:23Z

yep.

hannamarie_says @ 2005-08-13T11:38:00

2005-08-13T15:38:27Z

www.AUTOMATIClove.tk

hannamarie_says @ 2005-08-09T21:23:00

2005-08-10T01:23:25Z

Guys are emotionally exhausting.

hannamarie_says @ 2005-08-06T22:17:00

2005-08-07T02:17:28Z

It's starting to sink in.
That in three weeks. It's over.
And.. I can't express the overwhelming sorrow.

hannamarie_says @ 2005-08-06T17:28:00

2005-08-06T21:29:41Z

I kinda regret not going to PCC.
Everyone's coming back saying how good it is.
And then again, I think I could do without the teary goodbye.
I don't know. I think I'll go next year. But then again, I don't.

hannamarie_says @ 2005-07-28T09:59:00

2005-07-28T14:01:20Z

Ooohh. My birthday was nice.
Party on Saturday. Should be fun.
Started hanging out with Amanda more.
She's tres fun, funny, and cool. =)
Oh and I've slept/lived in Bri's room lately..
Just while she's at PCC though.. I don't know why.
I think that's it really. Saw Charlie for a second time.

hannamarie_says @ 2005-07-16T21:46:00

2005-07-17T01:47:00Z

Charlie and the Chocolate Factory is my new favorite movie.
Eff yes.

hannamarie_says @ 2005-07-09T19:39:00

2005-07-09T23:39:59Z

It's thundering and lightening.
And of course raining.
I love thunderstorms.
Haven't had one of these in a while.

hannamarie_says @ 2005-07-07T21:06:00

2005-07-08T01:08:14Z

Okay. So I'm listening to Take Off.
It reminds me of alot of stuff.
It's kind of cool and kind of not.

hannamarie_says @ 2005-07-04T19:59:00

2005-07-04T23:59:01Z

hannamarie_says @ 2005-07-03T17:42:00

2005-07-03T21:42:39Z

Yay for the cool new layout.
How radddd

hannamarie_says @ 2005-06-30T10:54:00

2005-06-30T14:55:11Z

So last night I fell asleep
Listening to Dashboard Confessional
And cuddled up in Ross's sweatshirt.
I think it was nice
But I don't think I'll ever really know.

hannamarie_says @ 2005-06-26T21:03:00

2005-06-27T01:04:31Z

Shmall_Shman

hannamarie_says @ 2005-06-25T11:19:00

2005-06-25T15:19:52Z

The party was pretty fun.
But I was all.. omigoshnospike
And then I realized it was stupid.
But I couldn't get out of it.
And then I talked to him this morning.
And now it's okay.

hannamarie_says @ 2005-06-18T20:36:00

2005-06-19T00:36:21Z

Alley's over my house.
Haha you losers. Go die.
I'm just kidding. But I love herrr!

hannamarie_says @ 2005-06-14T17:56:00

2005-06-14T21:56:39Z

Gosh. The Big Sit kills me.